I'm CONFUSED . what should i do?

Why don't you just move on? Really, that should be a sign that it isn't meant to be. There are plenty of other potentials. You are only 14, but I'm pretty sure that this won't be your first or last rodeo so get out there and see the horses. Lol. But really what more is there to say? No matter what you do, that will always be in the back of your head. So just move on. After you do, you will wonder why you even like him in the first place.